hais
):
i just miss u so much .
i just wish to see you .

deardear where u ...
haix imu lehs .
yr hse also nobody ans .
call me if u see this k ?

tdy had a fun time with 2i peeps n bingliang after sch .
rehearsal was bad .
coz something went wrong .
& the music suddenly so low .
siao one .

den after sch .
all of us pei astrid go hme .
me yvonne yingying yufang nick & bingliang .
after that nick bought chocolate icecream .

but he said it turned sour .
all of us tried lol but i thought it was nice .
hahas .
after that we were all kicking a cigarette box .
all the way from sch to cp !

lol so fun lors .
hahas . den i keep miss .
den they keep laugh at me lors =.=

some actions that u did reminds me of someone .
hahas .
after that jiu go home .

yaoshijun where u ah !!
AHHHHHHHHHH .
haixx .

its raining now .
such a big rain .
such a sad rain .
so lonely ~
home alone 1000 ?
haix .

how i wish u are by my side now .
imu .
no one understands .
it seems like everything is out to make me fall .
haix .
imu soo much so much so much .
haix .

i know love cnt last forever .
and as the time goes , feelings would fade too .
but i rly hope u will treasure me .
tdy heard one more bad news .
yeah why must all the bad things happen to me .

eechen said ' ignorance is bliss ' .
but i would rather know everything .
hais .
my heart felt so cold n sour .

and im like trembling ?
thought i would suffocate .
the world suddenly became so cold n heartless .
thks eechen for lending me ur warm hands .

hurt im rly hurt .
dont joke with this kind of things .
its not funny .
ive nvr cry so hard before .
even crying in front of u .
haix .
why am i so useless ?
i just cnt stop tearing .
haix .
im scared i would cry out if i sing .
thats why i nvr sing .
u cnt imagine how hurt i am .
the scar cnt be removed .
but i still love u the same .
maybe even more .
coz i know i cnt lose u .
i would just die .
hais wo hao ai ni .
loving someone is so painful .
so painful that i thought i might die of the pain .
so hurt , so hurt .
trusting somebody who u trusted so much before again is so hard .
haix rly hope this is just a bad dream .
iloveu .
& i hope u love me too .

Labels: is ur heart still here ?

i cnt believe u said that.
i rly love you.
And it has nvr fade before.
Im heartbroken.
I know I can nvr be the same again.
Cannot stop tearing.
Cannot stop thinking abt it.
But i still love you the same.
I only can say that i love you.
I really love you.
Hais .
I'll cry myself to sleep.
i wonder dreams are really opposite of reality.
If i rly sleep, I don't want to wake up again.
I hope u still love me as much.
Woaini.

stoppppp calling him that !
i fkin dont like okay .
its not good to say a person like this .
society now dont rank anybody .

nobody is high nor low .
if he is lowly den all of us also lowly .
& saying somebody imbecile is not humanely .
im also imbecile ?
okay !

ilovehim & nobody can replace him in my heart .
whats the use of hating here n there ?
i rmb u hating many ppl .
yeah right ?

many many . but in front of them its like nth happen ?
u are still so good to them .
& creature is an evil word .

do u even understand the situation now ?
who started it all first ?
whooooo started it all first !
okay u can hate me .

so what if i have many flaws ?
everybody has flaws alright .

hating him means u hate me .
its the same okay .

deardear ilu & i will always support u .
stop all this words .
now .

tdy physics lesson damn fun de lors .

tdy early morning mdm siak made everybody angry .
changed other ppl's seats .
sometimes , she's just damn irritating .
talk in such a suan-ing way .

i seriously hate ppl who do this .
den still dno that they are actually the ones who are wrong .
den still talk like everybody owes them a living ?
pls think before talking and get the facts right .
siak can be quite nice at times but she's just a naggy old woman .

i dont like ppl who keep emo-ing .
like siak with her face .
and ppl who talk vry vry loud and keep screamin .
and scold ppl for nth .

noise pollution .
quite irritated as 3d sometimes damn noisy lahs .


keep having moodswings this few days .
sry deardear .
not purposely want to talk abt the past de (:
ilu always .

i'll always stay beside u n support u .
coz i rly rly rly love u .
i <3 yaoshijun sooo much .
=D

i wonder whats so fucking good abt DOTA ?
its just a fucking shit game .
fuck fuck fuck shit .

am i or am i not MORE IMPORTANT than a game ?
i know u love ur DOTA more .

LOL edited some words .
coz this are words i said in a moment of anger .
sry deardear !

argh .
why do i always go online de wrong time ??
contacting seems so hard w/o hp .
sians .

fkin bored at home .
hate it .
sians .
hate everything !

emo emo .
siao .
i miss didi !
i want to carry him ):

i miss deardear more ):
i miss yaoshijun !


思念是一种病 ):

HAPPY 5th MONTH ANNIVERSARY deardear <3333333

yaoshijun !
wo zhen de hao ai ni ~
i love everything of u & im lovin u more n more .
soooo much so much .
so glad that u are a part of my life .

ilu so much i cnt belief it .
always be there for me k ??
i need u .

hais just think that the world is so unfair .
there's just no justice at all .
no concern , no nothing .
ai whatever .
its just so not easy to forget .

hope everything will go smoothly tmr .
((:
frustrated .

stupid mr chong jee keong !
u'll die .
hahaha !

wish everybody good luck .
ilu*

hms something happened ytd night .
felt very sad n hurt .
my heart was bleeding .
but its all over now (:

yvonne , i hope it wont ever happen again .
coz i treasure our friendship (:

& thks to deardear for always being there for me .
deardear thks woaini .
cannot imagine myself without u .
i would be lost .
ilu more than ilovemyself .
thk u for u .

iloveuwithallmyheart .
u will always have my support no matter what u do .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MDM CHEE x)

tdy met deardear .
we went to eat at cp library .
saw many nchs peeps . lol .
dno see huahyun how many times there .

den after that deardear jiu pei me go my ahma hse .
den on the bus a very embarrasin thing happened .
coz i sit at the middle of the back seat .
i dropped dear's file .

and de file zooom all the way in front lors .
den dear jiu go take while the bus is still shakin .
den we keep laugh lors .
so sry deardear )):
i just stuck there dno what to do .
im stupid =x

den jiu went my ahma hse .
i miss u dear .
LOL :)
and he saw my ahma !
coz he gehgeh walk past .

watched the last episode of Condor Heroes .
so nicee n touchin .
den jiu went hme le ~

phone bill 50 dollars .
mom scolded like hell .
my msg nvr even over lors .
walaos cnt call out le & cnt lend ppl le .

i want i want i want to be with you forever .
wo ai ni .
imu *

tdy emaths test totally sucks .
damn hard lors .
but cnt blame ..
other chapters i got listen .
only THIS i dreaming ):

early morning got scolded by mdm yeo .
me yingying hongkiat melvin & tinhwee .
coz we went to toilet ytd without permission .
i stomachache lors !!
all SIAK's fault .

hmt lesson me & bella keep sing :)
love ya bel .
last time we keep sing de .
but now diff class .
i rly miss 2i all of a sudden .

den suddenly have the urge to join NC superstar =.=
its last minute de lors .
i miss astrid !!

den after sch rehearse with astrid (:
cnt belief me n astrid 8 yrs de friendship le (:
ilu meme !
nick n alison also in 3d .

den jiu go sing le lors .
lol . den nick first time sing for me lors .
den he sing quite gan dong ba .
he sang wo ke yi .

astrid jiu dont need say le . LOL .
so pro . hees .
astrid sang mu nai yi ~

saw the old judges .
saw zijie LOL .
no change at all .

after that went redcross .
eunice & me talk to rouhui maam for very long .
talk about nurses n her experience all that .
i really really want to be a nurse !!
=D
nursing is such a wonderful job .
so kind , so pure .

yay !
im like missin deardear every moment lors .
EVERY .
wo zhen de hao ai ni !
u are soo special to me .

ytd f&n bake cake .
had a fun time with eechen n teanna =D
but i only manage to eat a few mouths ):
coz i go toilet come back left such a small piece .
SOBS .

& im so sick n tired of lending ppl tissues ?
okay u may say im lame .
tissue is sooo cheap right ?
but have u all thought of the amount of tissue that u guys have lend from me ?
can become a mountain le lors .

hms . aiya whatever .
cant u all just bring ur own ??
sometimes i lend ppl tissue until i dont even have enough le lors .
argggghhhh .
i dont want to be tissue lady anymore )':

tdy krishnan no voice at all .
so ke lian lors ):
kelian him sia .. coz he's nice (:

den yingying they all say got one tcher look like me !
so disgusted lors . WTH .
sobs .
they laugh till want peng lors esp ying !!

& mr ansar called me JIA SIA .
OMG lors .
whats wrong with everybody ?!!
LOL .

ytd mel's papa treated me to watch TRANSFORMERS with their family .
so good lors :D
thks melly ilu !!
n the show is DAMN nice de !
must must watch .

me n deardear de 5th month anni coming le x)
8 more days (:
time really flies ~
hahas wohaoaini *

deardear so shuai !

haix .
very sad to hear that from u .
heart very sour very cold .
haix .

but from the very starting day , i already love u alot .
i hope u will love me more & more .
i hope u wont treat me like ur other ex .
i hate relationships that only last a few days .

vry tired now , but still feel like posting .







but nvr manage to take his whole face .
coz he hate taking pic .

we still saw a bus driver eating potato chip while driving !!
den still eat until lick his fingers lick his lips .
OMG lors .


siao de lors .
he resting LOL .
den jiu take the opportunity to take the pic .
look like zhengyuanchang right !!


so high n funny .
everybody so tired after laughin so much .
den after that jiu went back to my ahma hse .

all of us play hide&seek .
coz the hse very big mahs . hahas .
me n my biaodi keep hide tgt .
laugh until cnt breathe .
hahas i love my cousins x)

after that my uncle brought us out for dinner .
we went to THAI EXPRESS .
nice too .
esp the tom yum soup !!
den learnt little bit of thai language .


after that they pei me wait for bus .
den my cousin bluff say dont want care me den want go hme .
den Q thought he say real de .
den he say he will pei me .
so gentleman right ?


rly rly can see that Q miss his gf alot .
=( feel sad for him too .
he suddenly will emo de lors .
cnt imagine i in different country as deardear lors )):

i know how he feel .
took this photo when he emo-ing ..
he's still totally zhengyuanchang =.=




hope all of us will be frens forever :D
den on the journey home deardear pei me chat on phone for vry long .
tks deardear wo ai ni (:

i nvr thought i would run out of time .
im seeing u lesser & lesser .
i hate the fucking timetable .
why must we end at almost 3 everyday ?
its so fuck de lors .

fuck it .
im frustrated .
i feel like killing something now .
& i dont care who or what it is .

i dont want just a smiley face .
it cnt comfort me .
coz smiley face cnt solve the fucking problem .
this is de 4th post of tdy .

too much emotions .
nobody to confide in .
so many fuckin problems .

WOOHOO ~
got a wonderful news !!

Q is going to my uncle hse tmr !
rmb Q ? he's zhengyuanchang look-alike =)
im definitely going too ((:
everybody's going !

YEAHYEAHYEAH .
we going bring him eat Singapore's thai food .

LOL at least it will spare me from my boredom .
because im practically rotting now .
deardear imu .

i can totally understand guys' :
' i-cannot-live-without-dota ' theory .
i CAN totally understand .
((:

coz im ERSIJIA aka miss understanding =.=
eee .. lol .

yeah Q is coming ((:
so so so happy .
im over the moon now !
somewhere near MARS x)

fuck .
im a masked-girl .

suddenly , im sick of my life .
i hate being alone at hme .

oh fuck .
being busy isnt rly bad . but the fact that the ' busy ' isnt rly that busy is BAD .
busy busy busy .
bzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz .
i hate everything thats happening around me !
i HATE it !
FUCK everybody upside down inisde out .
nobody to confide in .
should i just die ?

so sian !!
ahhh tdy wake up quite early .
hahas quite slept early ytd .

im dying of boredom .

& i miss deardear lots !
imu lahs .
sians cnt wait for monday to come .
so i can see dear n all my frens !

better than rotting at home ):

i just suck .
SUCK .
smth wrong with me .

f everybody .
no one to talk to .
where's sijia ?
gone ~

my soul left my body .
coz i hate myself so much .
fuck .
tks elmo )):

i hate moodswings .
but i cnt stop having moodswings .
just feel killing someone now .
tks elmo for listening to me crap .
siao .
=(

had a fun day with my yangguang1oo tdy at the playground near my block .
we are mad .
taking lots of disgusting videos .
LOL damn fun .. den suddenly saw my bro .

he's going out .
& he saw us too . playin at the playground like children .
hahas so fun .
love yangguang1oo ((:

coz amaths class test no more le mahs .
den i also finish homework le .
so very relaxed !
wooohoo .

dno deardear got go tuition mahs .
hms ................
i also dno lehs .
he better go ah !

my cousins are all missing Q so much .

Q aka thailand fren aka zhengyuanchang look-alike .
esp my two girl cousins .
my biaomei n biaojie .

dno why have the urge to post .
maybe its because my cousin is QQQQ-ing into my face .
lol .

my biaojie is bigger than him by 3 yrs old sia .
coz he too shuai le .
even my biao di say he might become a gay .
wahahas .

SiJia , Cheryl , Jolene , KiaHng , Jhiohng & Q <3 hope we will be cousins n frens forever !

he's the 2nd from the left .

and he's wearing hairband here coz he just washed his face .

but also very stylo . LOL . really look like zhengyuanchang sia !

suddenly coming to think of it .
i nvr really go n think of him ?
i dont even miss him =.=
why cheryl they all reacting like that sia .
LOL .

but rly hope all of us can get out tgt soon !
it will be real fun ..
taking him to explore Singapore :)

but now he already stay in the dormitory of the International school le .
hope he dont forget us when he found his new frens .
he keep telling me that he miss his gf .
who is back in thailand .

although he look matured , he's still a young boy at heart .
he like to sa jiao like a small didi .
why do frens come n go so fast ?

but i know we will meet soon (:
heees .


oh ya my mind already full of dear le .
how to think of other things lehs ?
cnt even fit in lors .
imu deardear ..
(:

hulalala ~
long long time no post le .
not at home this few days ..

met a new thailand 14 yr old boy ..
his name is Q .
LOL he's my uncle de fren de son .
he's nice ..
so happy to meet a new fren from other country (:

& he look like zheng yuan chang !
LOL .

sch was fun tdy .
krishnan gave me a piggy keychain !!
hahas .
i love it .

mel yv n me was like calling everyone baby .
so we were baby-ing around .
LOL .

deardear soo shuaii (:
heees .

ZHU LI BA ~ lol .